Esi siqwenga sasikhona yapapashwa okokuqala kuMedium . Iphinde yapapashwa kwakhona ngemvume.
Ubuso babungobam, benziwe ngokugqibeleleyo. Ibinempumlo, izidlele. Yayinombala wamehlo am kunye nokumila kwawo. Umzimba, nangona kunjalo, wawungatyebanga ngokwaneleyo.
La yayingamava am kunye nomdali ongumlinganiswa ngaphakathi Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 4 .
Ndityebe okokoko uxinzelelo lwam lwaqala kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, kwaye ndakuba ndikho, kunzima ukubuyela kwakhona. Nantsi into, nangona kunjalo: ukutyeba kwam akuthethi ukuba ndifanelwe yintlonipho encinci, iarhente, okanye ukulawula ubomi bam. Oko akuthethi ukuba uhlobo lomzimba wam kufuneka lususwe ngokupheleleyo kwimidlalo. Eyona nto yayingaqhelekanga ngayo yile midlalo mibini idlulileyo, kwi Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 2 , Bendinokuyila i-doppelgänger yam egqibeleleyo, ndimnxibise ibhulukhwe yomkhondo kunye ne-hoodie emnyama, kwaye ndihambe ndirhabaxa.
Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 2 unomnye wabadali ababalaseleyo abakhe benziwa; ndilwe nam. Ayisiyiyo kuphela enokwenza ukuba ubukumkani butyebe kakhulu, kodwa isini sisityibilikisi endaweni yokuba sikhethe kubhinari njengoko kunjalo Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 3 kunye ne-4.
Zithini ezinye zeengcinga kunye neemvakalelo ezidlule entlokweni yam xa ndingakwazanga ukudala umzimba wam Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 4 ? Yothusa, ubukhulu becala. Umdlalo wawukhutshelwe ukwahluka komzimba, kwaye bendikulangazelele ukuzenza. Kwakukho nokuzithemba okungapheliyo. Mhlawumbi ndandibaxa izinto. Mhlawumbi oku akubanga yingxaki.
Okukhona ndicinga ngako, nangona kunjalo, kokukhona ndiye ndabona ukuba yingxaki. Ukudlala uguqulo lwam olucekeceke lweKiva kundishiye ndiziva dysmorphic; Kwakungathi ndiwuthiyile umzimba wam, ndizithiyile. Iimpawu ezindala zokuxela, ingxaki yam yokutya okuzinkcinkca / ukucoca kunye nokuphepha izibuko, kwavela. Kwakungekho nje malunga nokungajongani nomzimba wam, kodwa malunga nokufumana i-Ideal Kiva ekugqibeleni eya kuba yinto efanelekileyo yokuba yiqhawe.
Kwi Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 2 , Andililo iqhawe. Kodwa ndim. Ndonwabile ukuthatha iifoto-skrini kwaye ndizama iimpahla ezahlukileyo. Ndizifumana nditshotshozela ngobudenge kwi-avatar yam ndithatha isithuthuthu kwaye ndiziphula ezantsi kumgca osembindini. Ndizibona ndimi apho ngemilenze enamandla ndinesifuba sam esifubeni kunye nesisu, ndibambe umpu kwi-hoodie efana neyam, kwaye ndiyacinga, Damn. Ndikhangeleka ndipholile.
Kwaye olo luvo olunamandla endinokufumana rhoqo.
Xa ndizithanda, ndisempilweni. Xa ndiziva ndiyinxalenye yoluntu, ndiyazikhathalela. Nangona kunjalo, xa ndithintelwa okanye ndenziwa ukuba ndizive ndikhathazwa, ndiyazinkcinkca ngokutya ndize ndigalele iintloni. Oku akunempilo, kwaye andikuthandi ukuyenza, kodwa kunzima ukuyeka ngaphandle kwenkxaso.
Ndiyazi ukuba ukusukela ubhityileyo kundenza lusizi. Ndiyazi ukuba iyabenzakalisa nabanye.
Kukho ucalucalulo oluthile kunye nokucalucalula ukuba amanina atyebileyo afike abe ziimpawu ezizodwa zengcinezelo kwiziphambuka zobuhlanga, ukukhubazeka, ubungqingili, isini, kunye neklasi. Ezinye zeziphumo kwibhodi, nangona kunjalo, zingezantsi.
Ndisebenzisa amava e-transgender, ekubeni ndingowesini ngokungafaniyo nam, ukuthelekisa nokuchaza amava atyebileyo. Olu thelekiso, nangona kunjalo, aluthethi ukuba ezi ziindlela ezinobundlobongela ngokulinganayo. Nangona abantu abatyebileyo benamava obundlobongela (kwaye abantu abadlulisa amanqatha banokuba nakho ukufumana ubundlobongela), akukho ndlela ithelekiswa nenqanaba lokuzibulala kunye nenqanaba lokuhlaselwa kwabantu abajamelana nalo. Ndifuna ukuyenza icace loo nto ngaphambi kokuba siqhubeke. Ingqumbo.
Abafazi abatyebileyo bafumana unyango olubi ngakumbi. Ngandlela thile, oku kunokufana nokuhamba kwabantu abadlulayo. Ukuqaqamba @ThatSabineGirl (kwi-Twitter) Uyichaze njengeTrans Flu xa ugqirha wakho etyhola naziphi na zonke iingxaki zonyango kukuhamba kwakho. Le yinto yabantu abatyebileyo ekufuneka befumene amava amaninzi, ukuya kuthi ga kubandakanya ukungachazwa kakuhle, ukwala ukubonelela ngemigqaliselo, kunye nomhlaza ongakhathalelwanga. Kwindawo ekudibana kuyo ukutyeba kunye nokuhamba, ngamanye amaxesha utshintsho lubanjelwa ukuthinjwa ekunciphiseni ubunzima nangona kukho imiphumo emibi yengqondo.
Abafazi abatyebileyo bayathintelwa ekuhlaleni. Kwakhona, sinokubona ukuba le yinto ehambisa abantu abangafundi njenge-cis. Ayikokuphepha nje ukubanjwa, ukungabi nantlonelo, kunye nokuhlukunyezwa ezitalatweni okanye ukuxhatshazwa, kodwa kukujonga okucekisekayo. Abafazi abatyebileyo bafunyanwa becekisa kwaye bengaqhelekanga ngabathile, kwaye ngamanye, bayakhutshwa. Kwakhona, sinokubona ukufana namava otshintshiselwano, apho isini esidlulayo sibonwa njengesiqhelo okanye ukukhulelwa kakhulu (kukuncinci phakathi). Oku kuye kube yingxaki ngakumbi kwabafazi abaNtsundu, ikakhulu abanokubekwa kwindawo ethile kunye nokukhulelwa kubunzima babo.
Abafazi abatyebileyo kunokwenzeka ukuba bafunyaniswe benetyala ngamajoni angamadoda. Le inkulu.
Izifundo zifumene abagwebi abangamadoda bohlwaya abo batyholwa ngamanqatha ngabasetyhini ngokucinga ukuba banetyala. Ngoba? Ewe, inokubuyela kwingcinga yethu yokuba ibhityile = ilungile, ke ngoko amanqatha = ayilunganga. Isenokuba ngenxa yokucinga kobuvila nokuphambuka, okanye inokuba kungenxa yokuba imizimba yethu ayithobeli mhlophe, cis imigangatho yobuhle yaseNtshona.
Ke kutheni kufanelekile ukuba amagama evidiyo abandakanye umzimba wam kubalingisi babo beendlela ngendlela Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 2 yenza? Kuba kunzima ngokwaneleyo, kulungile? Kuba inyathelo lokuqala lokumisa umzimba wam kwaye ubonise abantu ukuba andinguye umntu ombi ibavumela ukuba badlale njengam njengegorha. Kungenxa yokuba baninzi ngokuqinisekileyo abadlali abadlala apha ngaphandle abanesifo somzimba esasokola ukuzamkela, kwaye imidlalo inokuba sisixhobo esinamandla ekubancedeni benze loo nto.
Kuba unako, imidlalo. Kungenxa yokuba kwi Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 2 , sele wenze. Ndiyazi ukuba ezinye iinkampani zinokukwenza oku, nazo.
I-ETA: Okoko ndibhale eli nqaku, ndifumene imowudi evumela ukuba ulayishe amafutha kunye / nokukhetha izihlunu ngakumbi kwi Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 4 . Ngelixa kukho imicimbi yokunqunyulwa ngamanye amaxesha, ndakwazi ukutyhala ukutyeba komlinganiswa wam nje kancinci kwaye ngoku ndisisidonki esibi, uMongameli olwa nomphambukeli.
Iimvakalelo zam koku zixubekile. Kwelinye icala, ndiyakwazi ukundenza, kwaye loo nto iyoyikeka. Kwelinye icala, isini iseyindlela yokubini ngo-4, hayi isilayidi njengoko sikwi-3.
Kuyamangalisa ukuba irow yengelesi uthotho lolo lunokubandakanywa kumanqatha ngelixa iinkampani ezinje ngeBioware, ezibhala iingxelo ezivuselelayo kwaye zizama ukubandakanya iindlela ezahlukeneyo zobuhlanga, qhubeka nokuzingisa ngenkani ukubonisa umzimba wakho odlalayo ubhityile.
Ukucaca, le yimodyuli ye- Uluhlu lwabaNgcwele 4 . Akukafakwa kumdlalo uqobo. Ndingathanda ukukholelwa ukuba iinkampani azicingi ngale nto, kwaye ukuba ndenza ingxolo eyaneleyo ngayo, mhlawumbi ndiza kubona ukhetho lokudlala njengeKiva yokwenyani kwimidlalo emininzi.
IKiva Bay ligcisa, itshantliziyo, umdlali weqonga, kunye nabasetyhini abatyebileyo abangadibananga. Unokuxhasa umsebenzi wakhe umxhasi . Unokumngxolisa nge-twitter @Kivabay .
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